So I met my tf we are carbon copies of each other. Best connection of my life. Been in separation since November. I had no idea of a tein flame before hand . Before my awakening. Spent alot of time meditating and learning and growing. I met a person that I have a deep soul connection with. That I knew I was using to feel loved because I have trouble loving myself. As we grew over the last 3 months. I was like oh shit. I really like this guy. But I'm gone when my dm comes back. So I weighted options and analyzed everything. Hes a great man. He is my ying to my yang. I met my dm in a dream. And I said our connection is dead. I was so stunted when I woke up and remembered this dream. I felt the happiest and most content with my dm as I ever have in my whole life. But as divine pisces said. I could be happy with a soul mate.
I appreciate him awakening me. And I will live my purpose with or without my dm. I can be happy with a white picket fence with my soulmate. I dont need the paradise with my dm. I still think about him daily and I actually always made a video diary to him. Just not daily anymore. I get signs and downloads. Some times I feel like I'm running from him. Sometimes I feel as if this is my path. Either way. I still have to find self love.