There I was minding my own business, feeling nice and balanced and calm, but somehow knowing the towers were far from over. And just like that, the tower fell, because I didnāt release my karmic situation on my own. Caught my karmic this morning with some other woman. While he was supposed to be at work. And actually while I was at work. š”š”š”As furious as I am, Iām sort of relieved. Iāve been being pushed to get out of this situation for months and resisted because I didnāt want to hurt his feelings or make my kids sad. Well, thanks universe for taking care of this for me. Moral of this is please release your karmic situations or the universe actually will force it to end in a more brutal way.
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Wow, towers are intense
I'm doing good. I feel a loss with detachment, but I am focusing on self and doing the small things. Thank you for the reciprocation!
Iām ok. Last night was rough, not going to lie. I wish I wouldāve just dumped him months ago. I thought I was doing the right thing but the universe kept telling me otherwise. Iām mad at myself but lesson learned. Thanks for caring. ā¤ļø
Oddly enough, now Iām not ok. But not because of karmic situation. My DM abruptly retired from his career and I just found out. I donāt know exactly what happened yet but I promise itās ego related and his job was a karmic situation for him.
I have no idea why Iām upset. My heart has been telling me that he needed to do this. And he did it. Iām feeling fear but Iām also very proud of him. His career was so unfulfilling for him.
Ugh, now my karmic is telling me I need to have myself committed because Iām living in a fairytale land. I never should have told him about my DM. He actually threatened to use my āmental health issuesā to get custody of the kids. š I donāt think heās serious but this is why Iām glad we have this forum. People not in this journey simply think we are crazy š¤¦āāļø
Itās like being set free, to be honest. Being free to be who we were meant to be. Did you have feelings growing up that there was someone you were supposed to be looking for? Someone you needed to find? I remember being a small kid, feeling that way. And then when I was around 12 or 13, I dreamed of him. My DM. I only saw his eyes but I knew that was who I needed to find. And just when I was absolutely not looking, in my childās classroom, at his teacher, there was my DM. I guess I get why my karmic thinks Iām nuts. Parents arenāt really supposed to fall deeply in love with their kidās teacher, but you know, the universe works in mysterious ways. Now knowing he was a teacher, Wouldnāt you say to those of us on this journey itās pretty obvious that something big is going on in his life for him to just abruptly retire in the middle of the school year? I think the only time I have ever seen that happen is if the teacher was physically ill or passed away. Iām sure that the answer as to why he abruptly retired will come to me because I always get information somehow. What if I had to put money on it whatever excuse He gave them to leave in the middle of the year was fake fake fake. Not that it matters. That was one of his karmic situations and he got himself out of it and once again Iām going to say that I am so proud of him. Now Iāve got to figure out how to change my karmic situation to where we can at least get along for the sake of these kids. Without me going to a mental institution LOL
I had a dream earlier this week about me and my twin being caught in the aftermath of a tower coming down on the freeway (not sure why) but there were chunks falling and crushing the vehicles in our path while people ran around screaming...but we werenāt harmed at all. We stayed by each otherās side and were safely guided to the side of the road.
I had another dream earlier this week involving my twin and her karmic...and the karmic looked like he finally got his karma (ouch). My twin was furious and upset with him and told him to stop following and to leave her alone. She was doing her best to hold back tears and told everyone she was fine but sought refuge somewhere out of view. I donāt know whatās going on between them other than what has been shown to me but I definitely feel an ending is coming...
To be honest, Iām open to Towers as I could use a shake up to my situation...but I feel the universe will probably offer me more than what I bargain for.
It always seems to happen that way, doesnāt it?! Itās never just one tower. Itās a domino effect. One falls, then another, then another. š¤¦āāļø I donāt mind them most of the time. I want to heal. I want to grow. And yes, change is good.