Heart Broken for DM

I had another rough night last night. Gee, according to my Fitbit I got 3 hours and 33 minutes of sleep. 🙄 I was so mad at my DM. I was feeling just heartbroken because he hasn’t physically come back to me and I was ready to walk away from this whole thing. I swear that I was divinely prompted to look at his updated work picture. It’s been up for a few months (updates every fall) and I’ve never had a need to look, but it was like his 5d self was telling me to go look. So I looked. You guys, I love him and can’t be angry with him. He’s miserable. Absolutely miserable. Like, he couldn’t even fake his amazing smile for a professional picture that’s seen by hundreds of people. And this is a guy who very much cares about how the public perceives him to be, so for him to take a picture like that without even an attempt to look happy, approachable, friendly etc is insane. He looked just pissed off with a huge side of defeat. I’m not giving up on him. I can’t. I’ve seen that sparkle in his eyes when he’s happy and I will keep sending him my love. Unconditionally. This journey is hard. But what I realized last night is that it’s a journey that’s a lot bigger and more important than my whiny 3D self. That is all. ❤️