Dear DFs out there.

Ain't easy, as true as no one ever said that it was gonna be anyhow. I promised my eternal love to one person, and today, she's doesn't even talk to me. I can feel my Divine Feminine all around me She looks astonished, powerful and obviously independent, and I feel just like a boy who has to make up his mind over what to do with his life. In a dream I asked my Queen why we are holding conversations during dreams only, and she clearly said: "sometimes, what we don't have scares us". I'm not good on choosing lovers, and my past is the witness, But please, do not let your anger obstacle the connection with your respective DMs or otherwise it increases the insecurities. I have a mask, and usually when I am alone I wear it, just to remind my subconscious to remove it. But as powerful as I can figure around family and friends in the 3D, Deep down I am extremely fragile, especially when it comes to Her. I am a very reserved and intuitive person, and I don't regard desires of women. My mother got to meet the gentleman side of me, and she knows how lucky my future One will be. Unfortunaly no one seems to care about waiting and timing, and so I often feel pushed to how things should be at my age (30). At 4 years old I was raped, and at 13 years old I was kidnapped for over 20 days. Although the legal justice took place, I forgave those who did wrong to me. Forgivness is the key of Love (the unconditional one) I'm putting this out because I am aware of the crazy energies in this journey, and my concerns goes to whether my One will be willing to receive my apologies. Patience is key of resistance And faith is what truly unites us. Please support your Divine Masculine, especially when you feel like don't wanting Him anymore (because then, is when he needs you the most). Light and blessings to all of You now...