I find it very hard to remain detached when the exact same day I try to do so, I dream of them or somehow their name is in the dream. The other night when I decided it was best to just move on, she appeared in my dream. We happened to be in the same place at the same time, they were seated and I was walking in. Anytime I’ve felt her and I in the same place at the same time in the 3D, we’ve never both made direct eye contact (although I could feel her staring me down.) I always felt like I couldn’t face her yet, as I get very nervous and almost feel frozen and self conscious. I’m also wondering if these are normal feelings to feel around a true twin? Anyways, the dream basically reflected that same scenario without the self consciousness. We both looked at each other this time and I felt quite a tease energy in the air (we seem to have that apparently) as we sat at different locations. I was hoping she would talk to me but she ended leaving shortly after, I must admit that I felt disappointed. I felt as if all it’s ever gonna be is awkward encounters and stare downs with no substance. So with that being said I detached again (angrily which I find myself doing quite a lot these days) telling myself that she’s fake, never really loved me, and is a false (courtesy of looking up true vs false twin and if I am even a twin) I’m questioning EVERYTHING at this point! I ended up dreaming that same night a dream that seemed like wouldn’t have ANYTHING to do with her BUT of course, it somehow did. Towards the end, I found that her name was just thrown in there out of nowhere. I found myself questioning what that meant and tried to refer to the context of the dream (someone got remarried and her name happened to be the name of the ex-wife.) Could it just be highlighting the fact that she is from my past, or that she’s still healing, or both? There was quite and emphasis on the Old and New and how one has now replaced the other. It gave the ex-wife (my counterpart) the left out in the cold vibe to be honest. Any other times that I’ve had dreams of her after detachment, I’ve felt that they were kind of annoying, like the dream or her was just trying to suck me back into misery, confusion, longing. I used to be fed up but now I feel like we might be getting somewhere. I have also been seeing countless variations of reunion number sequences as of late, so that‘s a good sign!
I’d greatly appreciate any and all replies! I am new and have just realized how much this forum feels like therapy. You know us TF community can’t just talk to anyone about these things without them thinking that we’re crazy or delusional lol so it feels great to be able to connect with others that understand.