Spiritual Discussion

Spends years waiting for twinflame to wake up and go through this journey of life with me. My twin was in a distorted place but I stayed loyal to the journey and to him although he treated me like shit. He used me for sex. He always drained my energy and used it on karmic. Since I have left him and this situation he got his karmic pregnant and she’s draining him just like he used to drain me. I now have found my divine counterpart (soulmate) that unconditionally loves me and protects me. He is everything I wanted my twin to be as a divine masculine. My whole point is that if you have been doing the work and your twinflame is tearing you down, walk away. There is someone out there ready to love you the way you love, ready to be there for you the way you need them too, and ready protect you the way a divine feminine needs to be protected.

Yesterday I was feeling very helpless about things with my DM. About 3 months ago I sent him an email thanking him for triggering growth in me and letting him go accepting things as they are. He immediately reacted in anger and we have not spoken since. I was trying to keep hopeful but I worry that I'm just crazy or obsessed with someone that never felt the same way about me. While feeling triggered and upset I went to his IG to see what he was up to (bad I know) and found he had shared a video of him singing "Sugar We're Going Down." This was weird because a friend had just shared a meme on FB earlier that day with the song and commented on it with one of my favorite lyrics from that song, "wishing to be the friction in your jeans." So here I am crying and upset because I miss him and wish we could just see each other; I decide to go get a snack from a nearby store (emotional eater over here like whoa) and no word of a lie, I turn on the radio, change the station because wasn't feeling the song playing on that station to another saved station... and I kid you not, that fucking song "Sugar We're Going Down" was playing. There are so many other syncs I could share, but this one really shook me up. Thoughts?

I get it, you are going through shit. So are we. It’s so selfish to want readings, advice or connection from you. But I do miss your guidance and I hope you are taking care of you!! I released my twin. Walked away to work on me. Okay if I never saw him again. Happy with my life, happy being single. I was finally in such a great head space and soul space. Vibing high in whatever will be will be in ALL aspects of life....then BOOM. Kick to the crotch tower moment!!! Just sends me spiraling!! I still do NOT want him in my life. I recognize him as a definite NPD!! Toxic!! Was just using me fir a free ride for 11 years. He cheated on me with his best buddies girlfriend and is living with her on her dime! Karmic? TF? My guides tell me TF, but I no longer want him. So my question is, if I’m ok walking this journey alone, WHY do these tower moments continue?? And I mean not little ones!!! I’ve had to overcome cancer, TWICE!! Once in 2015 and again 2019. I lost my business and got financially wiped out due to a flood. I’ve been battling the insurance company for over 7 years with promises from my lawyers of a large settlement. They called today and are now advising me to settle for less than 1/5th of my claim. While they are taking over 30% of the original ask!! Basically leaves me with nothing and out $265,000.00. What on earth do any of these tower moments have to do with my journey?? Or maybe they don’t and my life just sucks??!!